PLIANT

You know I wish I could pour my heart out

And let everyone read every story on my status

But this won't be me the truth is..

I don't know how will they take it

All I know is everyone is entitled to their thinking

I don't know if I'm a likeable person

Hear all the talking, yelling ,shouting, crying happening

There is a war inside

It seems like most of the time I manage to keep them on check

But somewhere somehow they tryna overpower me

And I find myself struggling fighting with myself

The mood, the quietness, it's not like I'm angry to the world but I'm busy

I'm worried about the war between my own soul and flesh

If they'll break apart, someone will be dust by dawn

Or in Hell by dusk

What can I do I don't wanna be that

But it seems like the circus is endless

All I know is I'm gonna keep up with the strong girl outside

The one inside, she's not a coward but she have lots of emotions that she keeps

What she can only do is to think

If tears tryna roll down I will make sure that won't happen

She is a strong girl remember no one can see her cry

I wish to buy time, and show them how I'll win the amazing race

Feeling like giving them my dead clocks so they can fix where I left them

If anyone can see my other me in two decades to come

Sometimes I smoke my dreams, trying to pursue future

Happy moments aren't active in the world

I used to have a good spirit as a kid

Before my boobs wrote another story of a girl

Sometimes I feel off track, this body is just a baggage

Wandering who I want to be...

Who they want, the physical one or the spirit that worries much

I only fear to be called a lesbian

My back against them, I don't see who's been laughing

The scariest thing, not knowing what is behind the scenes

She is going to do it, she's not going to do it

She listened to the haters, she's doubting what's on the paper

She is a strong girl remember no one can see her cry

- Alpha